Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Life is dying a slow death

I know I sound like a loser,but i dunno why nothing,ever seems to go well for me.My relationships,my work,no fucking thing at all.

i think dreams are a bad thing.coz i never have nightmares.my dreams aer colourful,bright like the sky.but reality is like a page from "the hindu"......in black and white and dead boring.
Why do guys who work the hardest never get the thing they want?right in front of my eyes,I see crap flourishing everyday.and its not jealousy.its sympathy.coz they think they are good coz they meet with success,and they live in the proverbial well.

Is that why they say great things are in store???so,when are the great things gonna come off the shelves?If this is struggle,I love it.

I fucking love every fucking bit of it.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, March 15, 2007

LIFE SEEMS GOOD...........

At last,differences between me and satyaki are kinda sorted out.i thought they never would be.we have our economics exam tomorrow and we have studied like zilch.he is busy sleeping while i am screwed here,neither feeling sleepy nor feeling like studying.God knows how exam will go tomorrow.Sumit and Chandra are studying together.hope chandra helps me in th eexam.his roll no. is right behind me.God,help me.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Childhood ...........

man,i miss my childhood.i dunno how it is with other guys,but i just hate growin up.why cant we be children forever?like that story in Pandora's Box.That was cool.No school,no studies.only playing.i dunno if this is the hallmark of a loser,but responsibilities gimme the creeps.And imagine a country where u r forced to get married by the age of 30!!!!!!!!!!!!Hardly have u started living,they ask u to stay with 1 girl all ur life and then after 2 years,u have irritating kids who piss and crap all around u.But u have to say,"oooooohhhh,how cute they are!!!!!Pissing on my files!!!".Man,WHat a life???????

wish everyday was like a sunday.no worrries,no studies,no MBA,no placement,no world economics,no Bush screwing Saddam,no nothing.

AWESOME DAY.................

Last night was awesome.saki,me and sumit stayed in the hostel and had a ball.we laughed and laughed for more than 5 hours.finally went to sleep at 2 AM after 5 hours of unadulterated crap.All the hostel guys are pissed off with us coz we ruined all theirplans to study.

Valentines Day approaching and i dunno what to gift?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?this system sucks.why shud guys always gift?why cant girls be the ones supposed to gift?of course i have shamelessly avoided gifting for the last 2 years.

This frnzy abt Valentines Day gives me the creeps.I think the only people who enjoy on this day are Archies and hallmark guys.ather than that,the Day is same as usual.And what with the sob-sob movies that they show on all the channels.Yuck man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DISGUSTING...

Saturday, February 10, 2007

was wondering if there cn be anything called true love?when can u say i am in love?when u keep on thinking abt someone?that may be lust.when u hold hands?again,raging hormones.can there actually be a person for whom u r willing to lay doen ur life and ur dreams and ur aspirations?doesnt that make u someone with low self-esteem?If someone else's pleasures and someone else's happiness can mean so much to u,doesnt it mean u r lost inside?

and for those in love,is it a compulsion that u have to only love a single person at a time?why cant love be treated as an indulgance?u can have more than one,so why is it that marriage is treated as the ultimate culmination of love?and why do u have to sacrifice one for the other?then can u say that u really were in love?u were weak so as to let it go.......

When i am doped.......

10th February,

Me and Sumit had doped and we realised that whatever we were saying at that time was what was actually our most innate thoughts,our ambitions.Sumit went on babbling bout wanting to host his own show on animal Planet and i went on and on abt ads.

Sometimes,i wonder.whats required to make it big?????only passion?coz i have been dreaming abt this since my childhood.work my balls off for 2 fucking years and then get struck off coz i have no credible work-ex?!?!?!?!?!so,whts required?some luck?or fucking barrels of it?